决心

突然间觉得自己可以狠下心做出一些意想不到的决定。那些从前不觉得自己能办到的事情，如今再也不是难题了。

我想，这就是成长的代价。岁月夺走了你的童真却让你变得更坚强。这是一条不容易走的路，可是我却为我所做出的决定感到自豪。

人，总会成长的。中间可能夹带泪水和笑声，可是它却让你看清更多事情的真相。

What is love?

Love is the driver for all great stories.

Love is involuntary. It is a craving for a specific person but what makes you love a person?

I bet one of the common denominators in both relationships is - you have let them see who you really are. They have witnessed you being strong, capable and exceptional, but they have also seen you be scared, neurotic and weak. The more you let them know your shortcomings, the more powerful the love.

Being honest and open is not easy. Working at being at peace with the things you wish weren't a part of you is hard work. Not only is it a tough internal process, but you are also working against a culture that doesn't understand, appreciate or support these changes.

In the end, the love you experience will make it all worthwhile. You might end up having less relationships, but the ones you have, will de infinitely more precious.

We Don't Talk Anymore

I just hope you're lying next to somebody
Who knows how to love you like me
There must be a good reason that you're gone
Every now and then I think you might want me to
Come show up at your door
But I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong

Don't wanna know
If you're looking into her eyes
If she's holdin onto you so tight the way I did before
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
Oh, it's such a shame

That we don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
(We don't we don't)
What was all of it for?
(We don't we don't)
Oh, we don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
Like we used to do

Don't wanna know
Kind of dress you're wearing tonight
If he's giving it to you just right
The way I did before
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
Oh, it's such a shame

Midnight thoughts

Damn, that emo feeling kicks in again...

Just watched a video on FB named "剩者為王". The conversation between the main character (ShuQi) and her dad was just way too touching. It voices out how much a father loves his daughter and always wants his daughter to be with the guy who can put the smile on her and walk her through the remaining path of her life.

"Marriage is like a marathon. It is not about how fast you start the race but it is about how far you can go."

Dad, I knew you would definitely say the same thing to me if you were still alive...

#triednottocrybutcriedsohard


Just in case you are looking for the link:
https://www.facebook.com/marieclaire.tw/videos/10154443075877744/?pnref=story

Just me and myself

It has been awhile since I updated my blog. Way too many things happened in the past few months.

Life has been quite smooth for me since young. Got good grades, obtained scholarship, went overseas, came back to Malaysia and joined MNCs, good bosses and colleagues around... Not really 100% smooth but at least no huge failures.

Until recently dad passed away, a few rejections in personal life and work had punched me hard on face. Sometimes, you would be amazed how strong you could be when you faced failures. And always be thankful for the good people surrounding you.

Remember, no one is obliged to be kind to you.

I still miss you

Sometimes, I still think of you...

Olympics badminton match has just passed one week ago and it reminded me again the moments when you first taught me how to hold the badminton racquet.

Whenever I saw beaches or swimming pool, again it would remind me the moments you spent hours to teach me how to do breast stroke and freestyle.

Your nags, your laugh and your angry face.

4 months has passed but I am still missing you... :'(

I wish time could turn back

我很好

人与人见面的第一句话往往都是：你好吗？然后你会报以微笑地回答：我很好。

是的，我很好。

可是，真的很好吗？

最近，爸爸不幸车祸过世了。心里所承受的难过和疼痛已经无法形容。从听到消息，到认尸，再回到爸爸的事发地点，一次又一次让已不完整的心不断的受到冲击。爸爸出殡前的那几天里，总是一个人默默躲在角落里流着泪烧冥纸，不想和任何人交谈。这时候才知道原来自己是一只鸵鸟，只会逃避残酷现实。

已经快一个月了，以为该流的眼泪都流光了，可是大半夜里还是会一个人偷偷的流泪想起爸爸的每一句唠叨。以前总是觉得爸爸很烦，现在却永远也听不到他的声音了。

即使再难受日子还是要过，班还是要上，费用还是要缴。没有人有义务为你承担你心里的那些痛苦。心里早明白这些道理，所以还是乖乖的上班去了。同事和朋友的关心总让我觉得很窝心，可是。。。

可是，我还是很害怕听到那一句：你好吗？

因为， 一句“我很好”包含了多少心碎，绝望和痛苦。