什么时候开始

什么时候开始，世界不再只有黑和白？
什么时候开始，眼里看到的是种种的谎言？
什么时候开始，我会怀念读书的日子？
什么时候开始，身边的人开始对你别有用心？
什么时候开始，朋友不再是朋友？
什么时候开始，梦想已经渐渐被淡忘？
什么时候开始，你不再有热血？
什么时候开始，金钱已成为了你的一切？
什么时候开始，两个人慢慢的渐行渐远？

原来，从我们长大那一刻，世界就已经改变了。。。

Living

Living in this world, most things are like clockwork, people are born, they grow up, get education, get a job, get married, have kids, look after them and themselves, get old and pass away. 

Have you ever wondered why most of us enjoy going out, watching movies, listening to music and socializing? Why do many enjoy being part of big gatherings, crowds and go to concerts etcetera? Society and evolution has conditioned most to seek their joy outside. Such external pursuit of happiness increases the distance, widens the gap, between who you really are and what you are projecting to be.

#justarandomthought

Just A Random Thought

I think loneliness is eating me up finally...

Everything felt so different now. Everyone has more stories to tell, more troubles, more unspeakable pressure.......

20 Facts About Myself

Just realized I have not been updating my blog for quite some time. In the past few weeks, I played a game with my friends which was to list down 20 facts about myself. I think this game is quite meaningful as I came to notice I do not really understand myself.

20 Facts About Myself:
1. I am a pet lover, especially dogs.
2. I am a chocoholic. Anything that is made from chocolate is my favorite.
3. I am a carnivore. I don't really like to eat vegetables except for mushroom. (well, mushroom is not a kind of vege)
4. I think God has given me everything except sense of direction. Recognizing the routes is just not my strength.
5. My greatest fears are height, darkness, dentist and........... SPIDERS!
6. Actually I hate jogging. The reason why I like to join marathons simply because I like to challenge something that is beyond my limit.
7. I have never grown taller since standard 6. *sigh, this is pretty sad.
8. My favorite sport is swimming. I started this since I was 5 but I never master it. *my dad is a swimming coach
9. I am afraid of loneliness but sometimes I like to be anti-social.
10. When I care, I care a lot.
11. I have been known as an adventurer. In fact, I am just as timid as a mouse. :(
12. Lazy. Sometimes, I just don't feel like doing anything.
13. I was a bio student but I never liked bio.
14. I have never done any jobs related to biology.
15. I have been to more than 12 countries, 40 cities.
16. My greatest regret is not being able to say goodbye to my grandma.
17. Not an alcoholic. (TRUST ME)
18. Tired of being independent.
19. Experienced tsunami and hurricane. Both are truly unforgettable experiences.
20. Last but not least, I love steamboat! :D :D

颓废

推掉所有的邀约，今天决心在家做个颓废女吧！-.-

宅女万岁！

A message in a bottle

I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you release me. And then you spread your arms and steps back into the fog because it is your place and not mine. I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know is impossible.

And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself staining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you. But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry.

Garrett.

By Nicholas Sparks

:'( 

Nostalgia

Due to the pain caused from my wisdom tooth extraction, I decided to stay at home on Friday night. (this is pretty rare)

It was so nostalgic browsing through my old pictures and posts on Facebook, it brought back so much memories! :'(

I was once childish, ignorant, silly, ridiculous, crazy, nonsense and all the pathetic words you can think of.

Looking back at myself, I can't stop thinking how silly I was (silly in a good way though *chuckles). Fell in love passionately, did crazy things with friends, sweet and bitter, foolish and rational, fantasy and reality. I have spent my adolescent time in such a fantastic way! Thank you for your presence in my life (each and everyone of you!)

Now, all of us has grown up to be a better person with established career, relationship and life. Some of you choose to stay in my life and some of you left. There is a Chinese saying 'All good things must come to an end'. I never regretted for any of it yet I am delighted that we met each other.

I cheerish these memories of my life, now and forever. :)

Life is like fireworks, short but beautiful! :)